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Almost a Year of Updates!!

Holy shit you guys, so much has happened since I last wrote I’ll try to quickly update y’all here.

In April The Translator (my girlfriend) came up and visited me for a week so I took the week off of work. It was fantastic, we went all over the place and saw an exhibit on Samurai at the DIA. We also marathoned all of the avengers movies and Agents of Shield before seeing Winter Soldier in theaters The Projectionist (Brother #3) was able to get us in for free haha. Naturally I was sad when she left but we had a great time.

May I tried to do some pallet projects but holy shit I do not have the tools for that. All I had was a few hammers and a mini crowbar. It took me an hour to remove 2 planks. Yeah not gonna happen. So eventually those got tossed, maybe someday when I have better tools. (like a fullsized crowbar or better yet a pallet-pal )  yeah yeah ‘shoddy workman blames his tools’ but man this shit isn’t gonna fly lol I need a better way.

June was pretty uneventful as far as I remember, I’d wanted to go camping during the summer but suffice to say it just plain didn’t happen.  Pops kinda doesn’t know where his camping stuff is and well, life gets a little hectic haha.  I was looking for an apartment but the only one in the right price range that wasn’t a complete dump was full so :T

July I went out to california to visit my family! There were good parts (like my mom buying me men’s clothing!!!) and bad parts (like having to exit my sister’s car at a stoplight because she was yelling at me so much) but overall it was good I think.  I got to hang out with my friends, go to the pier and beach, play with my niece, and I even got to go see The Translator again. We met up at Little Tokyo and it was a great time.

August was busy busy! Early in August The Artist and I went to Detroit’s Pagan Pride! It was super cool, we both got Tarot Readings (She was fantastic) it was hilarious because she would say something so spot on and The Artist and I would just look at each other and try not to laugh. I also finally picked up a Thor’s Hammer pendant for regular wear and another set of runes ahaha. It’s a problem. In any case The Artist had a great time as well and is slowly getting more interested in these kinds of things.   Towards the end of the month I took some vacation time and went down to Georgia to visit one of my best friends The Teacher. We also met up with a bunch of internet friends from a forum we were both on, unfortunately the forum died shortly before the visit. We also were going to DragonCon but I got sick :T  by the time the Convention rolled around I was super sick and couldn’t go.  Friends brought me back some souvenirs though so honestly my wallet was more upset about it than my heart haha.  I also discovered that I am absolutely in LOVE with Georgia.  The Teacher had mentioned before that I should move down there (Honestly idk if she was mostly joking or not) but after that visit I decided fuckyeah.

Now, I’d been considering moving for at least a few weeks before this but I HAVE SO MANY OPTIONS.  California, Wisconsin, Georgia or Japan if I was going to move, OR staying in Michigan.  Well, that’s too many options for a flake such as myself so I consulted my good friend The Witch. She did a massive Tarot reading for me that basically said I’d be cool anywhere except Cali (which honestly isn’t surprising at all).  But she said that if this were a reading done for her. She would absolutely pick Georgia.  I was still a little bit of a flake though until The Translator also got a reading and hers sounded like anywhere would be kinda rough. Except Georgia!  And then after going and having such a great time (Despite getting a terrible cold) IT WAS DECIDED!

September I was back in Michigan and ready to go to the Renaissance Festival! I met up with The Artist and her Fiance (who is also an artist) for the last weekend of the Michigan RenFest! We introduced her Fiance to Korean BBQ (which everyone loved) and then I did my first long driving excursion out to the Ren Fest on saturday!  We got only a little lost but The Artist said that my driving is getting better haha.  We had a great time and spent entirely too much money hahaha. I bought a $200 Axe and frog to carry it with.  Actually I also bought a small frog call too though come to think of it I don’t know where that is at… In any case it was a lot of fun and I’ll have to put some pictures up of that here at some point.  Also the truck I had been driving had become officially mine!  Pops and step-mom gave it to me 8D although since i plan to drive down to Georgia I knew I’d need a new one that could handle the drive.

October was pretty cool.  The weather started getting colder and since the truck was mine I felt more comfortable about using it all the time. The month itself was pretty uneventful but the weekend before halloween The Artist and her Fiance came up to my house and we were going to watch scary movies and go to a haunted house and everything.  So we went out on Saturday, introduced the Artist’s fiance to the BEST sushi. I mean, I lived in Southern California for like 3 years and this was THE BEST sushi I’ve ever eaten.  It’s this little hole in the wall sandwich place in downtown Mount Clemens, MI called Chantels Jailhouse Deli. Honestly I’ve only ever had their sushi but haha, it is delicious.  After that we walked around downtown there and there were the remnants of a little halloween festival going on. Kids were dressed up and trick or treating at the shops it was super cute.

Then we went to Gibraltar, for those who haven’t been it’s sort of like a giant fleamarket but all indoors.  Every so often they have special events such as gun and knife show, baseball cards, etc.  This weekend it happened to be the holistic Health Festival which was filled with stone vendors. It was a ton of fun and we even got Aura Chakra reports done which were really accurate and really interesting!  You put your hand on a thing where it takes your biometrics and the computer prints out a report and they talk to you about your aura and chakras and what it means and all that it was super cool.  One of the guys looks at it and comes up to me and is all “Looks like you’ve probably got a sore throat.”  and holy shit though haha I was complaining about it earlier that day.  So then we went out to go to the haunted house and… all three of us chickened out haha.  Since they were getting kinda worked up about it inside, I got kinda worked up about it too, and when The Artist and I turned to her fiance for  a final yes or no he was just kind of “Well, I’m not really feelin it.”  and it was kind of a big relief so we all went back to my house and watched the Conjuring instead lolol.

The next weekend for Halloween I got to drive down to The Artist’s house and stay there for the weekend! It was a LOT of fun and since she recently got kittens there was much cuddling haha. Actually it was because of the kittens that I went over there instead of having them come to my house for a 2nd weekend in a row, so they wouldn’t have to leave the kittens alone again. And also because I wanted to see them haha.  They had an extra bed they set up for me and we got to hang and talk a lot and drink a lot, it was a great time haha.

Unfortunately when I was driving back home it felt like the truck was really low compared to normal… and so on monday we took my truck in to the mechanic. All 4 springs/couplings were either cracked, broken, or gone!  That, paired with the muffler I needed to fix, and the transmission that was no good… well… it would have been a hefty bill.  I’m still looking for a car but it’s kind of rough. I only know some vague things that I’m looking for, and despite offering help once  my pops hasn’t really come through on that.  I don’t even know what budget I should aim for what kind of loan to get from the bank and ugh it’s a mess really.

So November has been full of that kind of stress. Thanksgiving wasn’t so bad as I got to see my grandmother and some relatives on my dad’s side.  Everyone liked my haircut that I was so nervous about haha.  I finally got a more masculine haircut so I was scared that they would make a big deal about it. But everyone just said it was cute on me so I’m really happy about that.  And that’s all that really happened last month.

And so we’ll see what happens in December!

I’ve got some other little projects in the works that I’ll hopefully get posts out about soon haha.

Media Arcana, my shop!

So I probably should have posted about this much sooner, before the holiday probably would have been best haha;;  but on October 31st I opened up my new witchy shop Media Arcana!

MediaArcana

You can click the image to go to the site! I’ll be selling all kinds of crafts and witchy or pagan things as I make them.

Media Arcana has been a dream of mine for well over a year, initially it was going to be a partnership between myself and another witch known most for her Tarot work. And so we made the name basically as a bit of wordplay. In Tarot there’s the Major Arcana and Minor Arcana.   Well, from there we found the word befitting ‘middle’ being Media and thus Media Arcana was born.  But, the shop wasn’t strictly tarot, and thankfully the phrase can have more than one meaning. Media of course being the plural form of medium which can also refer to various objects and techniques (such as when applied to art) and so on. And Arcana of course referring to mysteries and secrets, and y’know, magical stuff.

And that’s basically what I’ll be selling on Media Arcana,  magical stuff.

Now, right now you’ll notice there’s only a few items and services. I’ll expand the readings as I grow in confidence with more spreads and I’ll expand the charms once they’ve been a little bit more tested. All bindrunes that I sell will be tested and at the very least have worked for me in the past.

For example the favorable-exam bindrune [First one Here]. I used this to help me pass my driver’s test on my 4th time around. That’s when I passed haha.  I also used it when I felt unprepared for a test in a speech course I was in.  I got a 59/50 on that test. Suffice to say I feel confident in this charm and so that’s why I offer it for sale. The other charm, Increased Productivity, has a favorable review from The Artist (in fact she’s requested a permanent one) so I also feel confident enough to offer it for sale.

So anyways, I hope to be making/testing/selling more items soon and if you follow this blog you’ll probably see a lot more in-progress pictures and things than you will at the official Media Arcana tumblr but there and twitter is where you’ll hear about new in-stock items first!

Midwest Witches Bazaar

So last weekend was super busy and just a ton of fun. Friday one of my best friends (hereby dubbed “The Artist”) came over for the weekend since we were planning to head up to the Midwest Witches Bazaar. When I first heard about this back in August I was really interested in going to the Ball too and since the theme was Steampunk I thought it’d be really awesome to finally get a steampunk getup together.  But then I took a look at things realistically and realized that, although the ticket price wouldn’t have been a problem, steampunk is a somewhat expensive pursuit. Supplies are costly and I just didn’t have the money (or time to be perfectly honest) to put together a kickass getup in time. So we opted to just go to the free/open to the public bazaar portion.

It was so cool.

A few of the folks were already in their steampunk attire but most were in just everyday clothes sitting around tables filled with a wide array of goods.  Some specialized in things like candles, clothes, tarot decks, runes, bone and horn, etc.  Whilst others had tables just filled with all kinds of varying objects, stones, oil diffusers, incense, books, jewelry, all manner of ‘witchy’ things. I won’t point out any favorites (to be frank I spent more than I should have and STILL didn’t get all the cool stuff I wanted!) but there is a list of vendors on the website most of which have websites of their own you can check out (Although I think we all know how witchy websites are so it’s really a much better experience in person).

I spent entirely too much money over the course of the weekend much of which was spent at the bazaar on items I’d been looking for but not yet found anywhere except online with exorbitant shipping costs. I have to say, nothing ticks me off more than when the shipping cost of an item is more than the cost of the item itself.

What did I buy? WELL HAHA LET ME TELL YOU!

4 chime candlesBlank Ceramic Chime Candle Holder*
Crystal Quartz Heart*
Spiral wire ‘cage’ *
Tea Ball*
The Steampunk Tarot
Runecaster’s Handbook, the well of wyrd*
Mortar and Pestle*

This list is much shorter than I realized… but still worth every penny haha. I also picked up some stuff for other peoples.  Asterisked items are the ones that I had specifically been needing/searching for so, ID SAY THATS PRETTY GOOD YEAH!? The steampunk tarot was kind of on a whim, but I’ve been wanting to dig into tarot for a while and well, I quite like the steampunk aesthetic (most of the time, The Artist and I were singing  Just Glue Some Gears on It along a necessary ATM run xDD)  There were readers and other services too. The Artist found and got a henna tattoo which the lady doing that was really cool and we all chatted whilst the henna was being drawn. She was really cool and we all seemed to get along pretty well. One regret is that we didn’t get her name or a business card (SO COOL HENNA LADY IF YOU SOMEHOW FIND AND READ THIS, WE’D LIKE TO BEFRIEND YOU =D )

That kinda leads me to the other semi-regret I had, I kind of wanted to strike up some hardcore conversation with folks about the witchy stuff but seeing as we were only there for the vending portion I would’ve felt bad for taking time from customers, especially if they didn’t have something for me to buy (For example the rune guy, I would’ve loved to stay and talk heathenism and runes with him but I didn’t see anything I needed/wanted to buy from his table as I have two sets of runes right now and am also in process of carving my own.) So hopefully next year I’ll be able to attend the ball portion and chill with these cool folks.

But overall it was very fun (10/10 would totes recommend) and I’m most definitely looking forward to attending next year!

On Doubt and Deity

So, let me start this with: I have a godphone.

For those of you who don’t know what that is, it’s generally an internal non-divination way to ‘speak’ with one’s deities. For me I hear them in my mind’s ear (Kind of like when you imagine something in your ‘minds eye’, how you can see it but you’re not physically seeing it? If you can understand what I’m trying to get at.   For me it’s like when I’m reading something I ‘hear’ myself reading it, only, in my head.  Well, for me, godphoning is like that except it’s not my voice.  Sometimes the ‘signal’ is fuzzy and I can’t tell who/what it is, or even if it is mine or not.  But other times it’s almost crystal and I know it isn’t mine.

Disclaimer! This is just how it seems to work for me,  I can’t claim knowledge about anyone else’s experiences and it’s not the only way this thing occurs.

Anyways! When I was doing my pagan microblogging thing over on tumblr I never really spoke of it except something of amusement in passing. I firmly believe in the “If you can’t handle having your authority questioned, you shouldn’t have any authority” type thing So I don’t talk about it. I don’t want the scrutiny and I don’t want to be told that I’m delusional or something because my experiences of dealing with X Deity or Y Deity are different than another, perhaps more experienced person’s. This is still something I worry about but I’m kind of sick of not sharing my experiences due to that kind of fear.

To be honest, as far as this stuff goes I have a hard enough time telling what of this stuff is ‘legit’ and what is just my own imagination.

When I first started, I was trying to find an animal spirit mentor.  I did the meditation several times over but kept seeing a fox, a popular animal and so my thought process was that obviously since this is a popular guide animal, this wasn’t a ‘real’ meditation and that the fox wasn’t my ‘real’ spirit mentor and I was just imagining something I wanted. And I have always, always had a very clear very strong imagination. So I continued,  after 3 or so times I didn’t see the fox anymore and most of the time I saw nothing.

And then it happened. I went into the meditative space and it caught my attention. I saw the one creature that I would never have imagined or picked on purpose.

Cockroach.

Because I know that I would never EVER consciously pick this creature, I accepted it more or less without question and he has helped me greatly through some situations. His aspects mesh surprisingly well with my own values and so on.

But now I think about it a lot what if I missed out on a different experience because of my distrust of myself, my doubt?

Later on I began to work with a few specific Deity. Almost from the beginning I heard and communicated with them rather quickly and clearly. I can’t say that I have exact proof that they are who they say they are. And I know that deities don’t have the same morality and many will lie and swindle humans, but I have faith that they are who they say. I have been working with them for about three years now and I have made no oaths and they have requested no oaths from me. Although one does say they claimed be at my birth but again I can’t verify such things.

I’ve only really opened up about my dealings with these deities to a handful of people, most of which either aren’t really versed in this pagany stuff to begin with and only two of which even deal in the same pantheon all and at the very least they don’t grill or bother me too much about it though they have helped me identify a few imposter issues I’d had. (I kept bumping into a loki that wasn’t well, Loki) But I’m kind of sick of hiding it just from my own insecurities, so I guess this is my rambling introductory post on the issue.  If my deities give me the okay I’ll tell you guys more on them and so on but at the very least you can probably look forward to hearing about those adventures even if I end up using nicknames which seems to be pretty popular haha.

As a small side note I’m on vacation this week, so if I can I might post some interesting things when I’m back home next week, and post pictures if I remember to take any haha.

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